(An affirmation—something I’m working on.)
I think of myself as a gardener.
I imagine the future and see my garden in full bloom.
I take seeds from that future garden and I plant them metaphorically right now.
How I water these seeds is with my nurturing-in-action.
There will be droughts. That’s expected.
Sometimes my energy has to go to watering myself in order to just survive. And that’s ok.
And other times I know my brain will get overwhelmed—I’ll start getting new ideas and before I know it, I’ll be planting new gardens—watering new seeds and neglecting the old.
And that’s also ok. Sometimes flexibility can lead to blossoms I would have otherwise never expected.
But no matter how it goes, knowing that whatever I water is what will grow helps me remember to focus on watering the seeds I *want* to see grow, instead of the ones I would never want to see in my garden.
This means that I refrain from watering the seeds of shame, because I know those seeds will blossom into a shame garden.
And this means I refrain from watering the seeds of ‘I’m not worthy,’ bc I know those seeds will grow into a garden that would never reflect the wonder of who I am.
And this also means refraining from watering toxic people, expecting that they will one day blossom in my garden, bc I know that other people are responsible for their own growth and I’m responsible for mine.
With practice, I can learn to trust myself and be a reliable gardener.
-JLK
